I’ve started and deleted approximately 9 different starts to this post. How can I come up with the right words to describe how I’m feeling?
I’ve spent a lot of time over the past couple of weeks trying to figure out something to say…five years later it doesn’t get any easier. The memories are so vivid sometimes…both the good, happy times…and the not happy times. I sometimes hear the beeps of the machines so clearly, I swear we’re back in the hospital room.
So instead of a long post this year, I’m going to share the following video/slideshow, made up of some of my most favorite pictures, and let them do the talking. Do me a favor, give your loved one a hug from me please.
Dear Lauren,
You would think that the Fifth Christmas without you would have prepared me for the five year anniversary of your passing, but if I’m going to keep my promise and always be honest with you…it didn’t.
Five years! How have you been gone for five years? Sometimes it seems like just yesterday that we were making dinner in our house, making plans for all the dinner parties we were going to throw. Wasn’t it just last week that we toured all of those daycares for baby Evan, even though we both knew we were going to pick the one right by your work so you could go visit him all the time? You’re telling me that I didn’t just propose to you on that beach the other day??
Five years is a long time…so how did it pass by in a flash? How do we have an almost six year old, who in a couple months will be graduating from kindergarten?? Oh, by the way, I hope you don’t mind but Evan wanted to sign up for karate and baseball, so he’ll be starting both of those soon. We’ll soon see who’s athletic abilities he’s inherited 😂
Evan wants to know how excited you were to see Finnegan again! We told him how you’d be there at the other side of the rainbow bridge, waiting for him to get across so you could introduce him to Rusty and show him all the fun things dogs could do in Heaven!
I know you’re busy looking over all of us so I won’t keep you much longer. I just wanted to write to you to say that we love you, we miss you, and thank you for all that you do for us, even to this day.
You’re the bomb.com. I love you, Evan loves you, and we all miss you.
Until next time,
Michael

Can’t believe it’s been five years. It does feel like yesterday that day on the beach. Lots of love you you both today and always.
I love this post, it brought tears to my eyes! Lauren will definitely be looking over you and Evan today like always! Big hugs!!!