In a perfect world, we’d both be at work right now.
In a perfect world, I’d be putting the finishing touches on your birthday surprise.
In a perfect world, two days from now, I’d wake up early and sneak out of bed. I’d go into Evan’s room, and wake him up. We’d go downstairs, and as quietly as possible with a 17 month old we’d make you breakfast.
In a perfect world, you’d wake up to the noise and smile to yourself. You’d listen to us cook while trying to hold in your laughter.
In a perfect world, you’d pretend to be asleep when we walk back into our room with a tray loaded with your favorite breakfast food.
In a perfect world, you’d jump up with joy and surprise and invite us to join you in bed to eat with you.
In a perfect world, the three of us would cuddle in bed and attempt to eat breakfast without making a mess while watching the Today Show…again, not an easy task with a 17 month old.
In a perfect world, we would hear your laughter, see your smile, feel your hugs, and touch your love.
In a perfect world, you’d still be here.
But we don’t live in a perfect world. No matter how much we want to.
Evan and I are flying down to Florida in two days, on what would have been Lauren’s 30th birthday. We will be spending the afternoon with her, not the way we wanted, but the only way we can. Later that evening, a large group of friends and family will be going out to dinner at one of Lauren’s favorite restaurants, BRIO. We will have an amazing time, sharing memories, telling stories, and making new memories to last a lifetime.
Hopefully I’ll feel up to writing more memories for you all to read soon. I have several in mind that I’d like to share, but it’s been getting hard to write lately. As the holiday season nears, I’ve been finding it harder to motivate myself to do much of anything, but I am trying. Please be patient with me.
I do have one thing to ask of you all. Please, please take a moment to tell your love ones that you love them. Please tell them that you care. Please tell that that you are there for them no matter what. I’m sure you already do, but please do it one extra time for me. I’d give anything to be able to tell Lauren one more time and hear her response.
Now, to give everyone a smile, here’s a couple of photos from our Christmas Card photoshoot!
Thank you for reading, I hope to write more for you soon!
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